if i were a boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you’re just a boy…

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speaking a bout being a boy.. i remembered ciara’s song, like a boy..

these songs kinda reminds me how much i realise myself being too boyish rather than being an ordinary girl…

you know?..

love for cute fluffy things, jewelry, obsession for tight fitting clothes, dresses, skirts.. yada yada yada…

things that will make girls go crazy? I find myself not attracted and those things acts like a repel towards me..

however..

i find myself attracted towards men rather than to girls nowadays. yeah.. im not to shy bout my gender. im most probably a bi trying to turn straight.. lately, my latest indulgement is men with long hair.. yes.. and i mean freaking long hair just above the waist. and those who had those freaky slender figure like a woman’s.. (i do know a few of my friends who does)..

listening to the song, i somehow pretty much agree.. if i am the guy in the relationship, I’ll pretty much do this.. breaking the other’s heart… but somehow.. i don’t think i will.. taking others for granted is not who i am. because relationships don’t last long and without us realising it, we just lost someone important to us.

speaking of wanting to be like a boy.. i couldn’t help when people mistook my gender. it’s in my genes and my shoulder was built like a man’s. what am i suppose to do..? hunch so they can see my unflattering boobs? lol. well… my girls are quite a size actually, but thanks to my shoulders, its unseen and owh.. i have a flat bum.. total unflattering. whenever i wear jeans, my butt looks like a dude.. flat and unseen.. that’s why i’d prefer baggy jeans.

so due to the circumstances, i decided to wear men’s attires to flatter my masculinity. and it so just happen that i look better that way. since that discovery, i’ve been trying to keep my hair short, no longer than my shoulder for the back but i’m keeping my front bangs just to add some uniqueness to myself.. lol..

must been wondering how’s my latest looks huh?..

i’ll update my pictures soon.. so just you all wait ne? =P