is it really necessary?

this had gone through my mind for the past 3 days after an outing with a friend.

does having the title “couple” a real necessity?

for me it’s only a title. nothing more than just a small title that won’t change.

okay2.. u must be wondering why i said this…

first of all, before having such relationships, we all start out as friends.. right?

and from there… we took step by step, knowing each other.. and blax3 etc.

and of course, that’s where love and care and all those craps came from right?

but do you guys notice that even if we don’t declare as a couple, don’t you think that the relation will stay as it is?

cuz, friendship is built on trust.. right? and when we move on to the next level, it is still based on trust.. right?

okay.. imagine this.. u are interested with this one particular person. u go after that person by befriending him/her. n looks like he/she is interested in you. n u guys became really good friends and bla x3. n then the trust grew stronger and apart of it become love and commitment.

everywhere you go, that person will always be there to accom[pany u. n when u have troubles, he/she will lend their ears and shoulders. it’s like you guys are bff but the relation stronger than bffs and with different sexes.

don’t u think that it’s just the same thing even if you guys are not declared as a couple?

cuz u still can say ur “i love you s” to your bff, u can still hold their hands even if they are ur bff, it’s like a special friend without a title.. you know? and it’s far more comfortable because

1st

it’ll avoid u guys getting to much of green eyes

2nd

u can have more friends cuz when u guys are bff, his/her friends are your friends too. (more package)

3rd

u guys still can hold them and see them everyday cuz, hey.. bff are always there with you.

4th

when u guys get into a quarrel, your friends will come out to help sort things out.. there won’t be any one sided friends.

5th

friends are forever.. =P no matter how bad ur fight with a friend, there will always be a resolution!

so.. do you all really think having the title “couple” is a necessity? cuz there ain’t no true love if there ain’t no friendship in the first place!

The paradox of our time in history is that:
we have taller buildings but shorter tempers,
wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less,
we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families,
more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense,
more knowledge, but less judgment,
more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness

We drink too much, smoke too much,
spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry,
stay up too late, get up too tired,
read too little, watch TV too much,
and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much,
love too seldom, and hate too often.

We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We’ve added years to life not life to years.
We’ve been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but
not inner space.
We’ve done larger things, but not better

We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever,
but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion,
big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce,
fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete…

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent.

Remember, to say, ‘I love you’ to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember, to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

George Carlin

deranged post..

okay, this may sound a lil bit off but lately, I’ve been thinking alot.

this goes when i was in the junior high school. You see, When i was in form three, our English teacher gave us this weird one month assignment know as “The Journal“. Honestly, I’ve never been honest when writing any stories in it. I played it safe, writing weird things that I’d never do. Go with the flow.. I’m too afraid to let the others know what had been running through my mind during my high school years.

I was afraid I’ll be isolated or so so..

Honestly, I am mature before my age. But I hid it away. Afraid that the others can’t accept me for the way I am.

I even remember one night where I had to tear 3 pages of an entry I wrote after thinking twice if what the teachers found out who I really am.

Been there, done that. shed some blood, sweat and tears. Break a few hearts (and souls maybe), stab a few and in the process sealing my torn heart and soul from others.

Still..

I had the best years in my life. Playing dumb. Playing stupid as if I had known nothing about the world. Going with my naive character, making others believe that I’m just plain dumb about guys. With my boyish attitude and messy nature, everyone expect me to be single throughout my high school life. Heck, I wonder what’s their expression if they knew the real truth? Probably they won’t be shutting their jaws for quite some time.

But in the end that’s what we called LIFE..

where NOTHING IS EVER FAIR…

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dear Journal,

I wonder how is it like to be a normal kid? Every day, i tried to understand what is it like to be able to think what teenage girls think. They say they are full of music and flowers and such and everything nice… Is it true? Because every time I tried to think of something good or something that made me felt better, there’s always emptiness. I couldn’t help myself from hating things that are made from the colour of pink or things that made other girls think that it’s cute.

Every time i tried on any skirts or dresses, nothing but fear came through my mind. Call it denial or illusion, that’s what came to my mind.

Nothing but fear.

Nothing but hatred.

Nothing but a grudge that’s growing within me.

Still..

The whispering words of love and and tender touch.. I could finally feel warmth, even if it was for his own sake. It felt… good…

I couldn’t help but to fall for it. Who am I to turn to when there’s no one else to reach? I was a mere child at the age of 8. I had no one. None could understand the emptiness I felt every time those who are suppose to be close to me, turn their backs just because of their working life, for my brother and for others who need them more than i do. I had no one to turn to except for those who i thought could be a brother, a sister or a friend.

And he was the only one who held his hand among the many… I remember his smile, his sincere laughter and his soothing voice.

He cared for me..

He loved me..

…. and betrayed me.

….I will never forget it..

TT__TT

god!!! why do these things keep playing in my fucking mind?!!!

is it because of my unpredictable mood swings? or is it because my surpressed stress is getting on me???

I can’t sleep a wink for the past 7 days!!!!!!

please!! make them go away!!!

an unexpected photoshoot.. =P

it all started when one of my classmate said he wanted to borrow the “hotshoe” i was safekeeping for my class through out the study week. I suddenly asked “Do you guys plan to stay longer at the studio?”

they said probably cuz there are 5 of them. So i told tem before hand to squeeze a lil space in the studio for me..

so i wake my oh so dearly roomate, Dija, told her to get herself ready in 30 minutes and dress in all black. Did the same to another friend of mine, Yun…

almost caught them off guard but in the end i got them to do this photo shoot of mine for the sake of my grades.. huhu

yeap that’s all for today’s entry.. i’ll update soon.. or prolly sooner cuz my xams are just around the corner.. huhu