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I had a Soul Eater photo shoot today and it loads of fun! un!

had miyavihoney(death the kid), reno-san (as reno ^^), ito.maki (Liz) ,akiko.wolf (Patty), deidei (Shinigami-sama), Mitts (Kishin) attending  the PS ..others are aoshi88, shadow_sniper and 9gems  as the photographer ^^ me too lolz

sakurai_innocent oso dropped by for a short while meh.. she’s cool! ^^

had a great time snapping picceh with all of them ^^

and even did weird things with the photo sequence things lulz! I like Patty n Liz cuz of their cheerfulness XD and miyavihoney had her cheeks pulled to have her chara smiled.. lolz.. ironicly, this was made last week during the Loveless photoshoot XD soo funneh!

owh2.. it started around 4pm n ended around almost to 6 i think.. then head back to sunway with miyavihoney to get my stuff from narukids.. (it is really perfect! ^^) n then went back home around 9-ish… so tired since i slept 5 am.. haha…

eto~~~

well.. how should i start ne?

right now im currently crammed with loads of assignments which requires more pictures and model search. something i’m practically good for the moment..

but something i’m slacking off right now is doing paper work.

i seriously need my full attention when it comes to typing and transalating words.. urghh~~~

that’s what they say.. art people just hate words and prefers to use image as their words and voice  ^^

and owh.. I’m practically hooked with this game

www.hotel626.com

a very2 good game with great graphic. will be better if u have mic. webcam and headphones + lights out. It’ll practically scares the shit out of you ^^.

hurm… and owh… I finally got myself into cosplaying!!!!! ^^ whee~~~~~ n my 1st photo shoot this sunday-as the photographer of course.. n guess what? one of my most fav anime:  Loveless  ^______________^Y

peace out ^^

hhehe jgn mara fardiana

1. 1. How much do you spend for clothes per month?
*hurm.. less than a hundred i would say.. but if something really catchy to my eyes and worth more than rm50, i’ll surely buy it.. XD
2. Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
*both of them are still friends and i don’t side on any.. it depends on the situation… 

3. How often do you think about committing suicide?
*millions but thinking back, life gives more decisions to be decide while committing suicide ends with a fullstop. plus, if i die now, i won’t be able to have my very own child!

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
*lately, i find myself very confident and i’m thankful for that.
5. How many babies do you want?
* twins are cool XD especially when they ame in both genders.. then i can play dress up with them!!! ahahaha yes, im crazy with babies.. if i’m allowed, i want three but i think having 12 is cool.. lol.. jk… but having a twin is a must!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
*if it rains in the afternoon or evening.. yeah, we’ll see a rainbow..

7. What is your goal for this year?
*Here’s the list =p
-new style.

-new boyfriend <—— hahahahahaha

- cleaner non-oily face

-do better in class
8. What kept you of being who you are?
*my family, they don’t understand me and they never try too.. heck. they don’t even approve me being an art student.. it pissed me off but i guess that’s what kept me going and made me do my best to prove them wrong.

9. What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to you?(List 10)
*Haha…Perfect is….Non-existent I could say.Oh well,for the sake of answering the question,a perfect boyfriend,to me (not in the order):
-  respect

- annoyingly childish (don’t ask why)

- charming

- Faithful

-funny

- Ambitious & hardworking

- laid back

- responsible

- open-minded

- Accept me for who I am,is in love with the essence of me,the person that I am (this is a must!)

10. What are you really afraid of?
*house lizards

11. What are your bad habits?
*i like to sleep in late, bite my fingernails and likes to spend on unnecessary items..

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
*hate me, cuz i don’t know who the hell you are and you being hateful won’t affect my life.. unless you want to make it personal..

13. State a random fact about yourself
*when it comes to kisses, i’ll surely fight to dominate it.. aha.. sorry guys..

14. What does flying means to you?
*soaring in the sky? dunno.. 

15. What do you crave for most currently?
*something extra spicy

16. Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?
*my freedom =p

17. Describe the person who tagged you.Honestly.
*snow white

18. What have you done to yourself that makes yourself happy?
*uhhh~~~~~ spend my money for the ones who needs it.. and played some comp. games for 18 hours straight..

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
*……… hopefully someone who’ managing a boutique or a cake house!! =3

20. What song is your ringtone?
*dunno.. lol.. my ex create this weird ringtone for me.

Instruction (IMPORTANT!!):
Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
Make a total of 20 question and tag 8 people.

List their name at the end of the post.Notify them that they’ve been tagged.

1. How much do you spend for clothes per month?
2. Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
3. How often do you think about committing suicide?
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
5. How many babies do you want?
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
7. What is your goal for this year?
8. What kept you of being who you are?
9. What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to you?(List 10)
10. What are you really afraid of?
11. What are your bad habits?
12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
13. State a random fact about yourself
14. Do you honestly think that you had seen everything in life?
15. What do you crave for most currently?
16. Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?
17. Describe the person who tagged you.Honestly.
18. What have you done to yourself that makes yourself happy?
19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
20. What song is your ringtone?

-imah

-zureen

-alang

-kadirchan

-izzah

-aha.. i dunno wh else to tag…

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you’re just a boy…

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speaking a bout being a boy.. i remembered ciara’s song, like a boy..

these songs kinda reminds me how much i realise myself being too boyish rather than being an ordinary girl…

you know?..

love for cute fluffy things, jewelry, obsession for tight fitting clothes, dresses, skirts.. yada yada yada…

things that will make girls go crazy? I find myself not attracted and those things acts like a repel towards me..

however..

i find myself attracted towards men rather than to girls nowadays. yeah.. im not to shy bout my gender. im most probably a bi trying to turn straight.. lately, my latest indulgement is men with long hair.. yes.. and i mean freaking long hair just above the waist. and those who had those freaky slender figure like a woman’s.. (i do know a few of my friends who does)..

listening to the song, i somehow pretty much agree.. if i am the guy in the relationship, I’ll pretty much do this.. breaking the other’s heart… but somehow.. i don’t think i will.. taking others for granted is not who i am. because relationships don’t last long and without us realising it, we just lost someone important to us.

speaking of wanting to be like a boy.. i couldn’t help when people mistook my gender. it’s in my genes and my shoulder was built like a man’s. what am i suppose to do..? hunch so they can see my unflattering boobs? lol. well… my girls are quite a size actually, but thanks to my shoulders, its unseen and owh.. i have a flat bum.. total unflattering. whenever i wear jeans, my butt looks like a dude.. flat and unseen.. that’s why i’d prefer baggy jeans.

so due to the circumstances, i decided to wear men’s attires to flatter my masculinity. and it so just happen that i look better that way. since that discovery, i’ve been trying to keep my hair short, no longer than my shoulder for the back but i’m keeping my front bangs just to add some uniqueness to myself.. lol..

must been wondering how’s my latest looks huh?..

i’ll update my pictures soon.. so just you all wait ne? =P

1. 5 ciri lelaki/wanita idaman anda (5 characteristics of your dream guy/girl):

- funny-because i’m one of a hell serious girl..
- childish at a certain time- due to the fact i love pampering others
- charming
- sexy in his own way.
- Loyal & honest.

2. 5 ciri lelaki/wanita yang tak pernah anda minati (5 characteristics of guy/girl that you never like):

- A pain in the ass- he won’t stop being annoying and he knows i hate it.
- Dishonesty.
- Arrogant-he won’t give a chance for me to explain things
- making a fool out of himself.
- huge ego which needs a little ‘talk’ so he’ll lower that ego of his

3. 5 perasaan anda sekiranya keluar dengan orang yang diminati (5 feelings you’d feel when you go out with the one that you like):

-Happy?
- Calm and Content
- Hopeful.
- naughty-hehehe always came up with those notty plans to get back at him!
- Lucky!!! =3

4. 5 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda (5 places you wanna visit with your partner):

-honestly.. i don’t care. as long that person is with me everywhere we go is special.

5. 5 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang akan anda hadiahkan kepada si dia (5 special things you’d give him/her):

- something that he had been wanting for ages.
- a hug, a kiss especially after we have been apart for a long time.
- take him somewhere special?
- compose a song/ poem and whispers the lyrics/lines into his ears.
- My heart & the love in it.

6. 5 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda (5 songs you’d sing to your partner):

- fall for you-secondhand serenade
- when you’re gone-avril
- chizuru-the gazette
- so what-pink (hahah must be weird right?)
- vermillion -slipknot

7. 5 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat 5 perihal ini.WAJIB!!Mereka perlu diberitahu akan hal ini (5 friends that you tagged.A MUST!!They have to be informed of this):

i dun care… hahahahahha

Clearly, the lessons of the Highland Towers tragedy 15 years ago have not been learnt by anyone, least of all the various government agencies, whether at the federal, state or local government level.

-Lim Kit Siang

a very tragic mishap that no one would ever want to experience..

i myself couldn’t help but to agree that none had taken things seriously especially after the Highland Towers tragedy. it’s like the screams of those who died in that tragedy had no effect on how reckless the government’s  judgments  were.. So in my opinion, mother nature decides to strike back and show them who’s the boss of who when there’s no respect shown to the dirt we step on!

Why cram in more projects when there’s empty lots scattered  in Bukit Beruntung waiting to be fully develop? We’re wasting more lands and i think we should preserve the hills.. It’s not a safe place compared to others and everyone knows that! Let the trees grow!!!

be nice for mother nature and i’m sure she’ll be happy to be nice too!

they learn to condemn.

if children learn with hostility,

they learn to fight.

if children live with ridicule,

they learn to be shy.

if children live with shame,

they learn to feel guilty.

if children live with tolerance,

they learn to be patient.

if children live with encouragement,

they learn confidence.

if children live with praise,

they learn to be appreciate.

if children live with security,

they learn to have faith.

if children live with fairness,

they learn justice.

if children live with approval,

they learn to like themselves.

if children live with acceptance and friendship,

they learn to find love iin the world.

~dorothy law nolte

risking my life just to save a friend’s soul.

helped her made and escape from her house..

i pity the girl. she’s like a prisoner in a big2 castle..

-i’ll tell about it later k? got things to do..

the worst nightmare i ever had..

falling for kevin federline’s charm when he dance..

yeap.. it’s official..

he is my latest star crush.. which i find it a bit disturbing

haih.. what a life i had…..

maybe it’s because i love guys who have long hairs, and know how to keep em’..

and i love guys who have like his strong attitute.. (it shows when he dance =3=)

darn.. i’m such a sucker for guys with attitudes and emo boys..